We all got 99 Problems but Our Skin Colour Ain’t One

We all got 99 Problems but Our Skin Colour Ain’t One

Hey guys! It’s been a while, I know… I have recently promised myself to post/write when I feel inspired and have a topic I really want to speak about. I do not want to run a blog that has forced and uninteresting content, so please bare with me as I try to figure this whole thing out.

Today I’ve sat down by my computer listened to some great music, and I’ve written what has truly been on my mind for a while, and I hope you guys enjoy reading it as much as I enjoyed writing it.

I have grown up in an amazing family, we love and care for each other and are together through thin and thick. My dad, John Hogan is honestly my superhero! He married my

Mum when I was about 3 years old, and he became the first person I ever considered to be my father. The one thing people always see about our family that I never really thought about was that he is white, but my mum and I are black. People would always ask if he was actually my dad, but I’d never really understood why they’d bother asking… His race didn’t determine whether or not he was my father. As much as it didn’t bother me when I was younger when I turned 12 and began to live in Canada everything changed… I wasn’t in Kenya anymore, I was in a place where people would look at me differently and would think “huh.. whats up with that?” When I’d walk down the street with my dad holding his hand people with literally stare! And I mean SHAMELESSLY stare. I didn’t get what the big deal was… I guess it’s weird to be a dark skin kid with a white dad…? But on the bright side after moving here, I was incredibly grateful to get the opportunity to get to know the Hogan side of my family. I’d only see them once a year, and it’s hard to base a good relationship off of just that.

As I spent more time in Toronto, I went to a small predominantly white private school and began to create my “Canadian” Identity… I was happy and felt like I was becoming something and felt as if the whole move was not as bad as I thought it would be. But according to the black population, I was “whitewashed” and wasn’t acting black enough. That statement honestly had me super confused. I began to think that I didn’t really belong in a particular “category”. My skin was too dark for me to act “white” (till this day I still don’t understand what that means) and my behaviour was too white for me to be considered black. This was honestly the hardest time of my life because I didn’t know where I belonged and I felt alone. No one should ever have to feel that way. I have never sat down and spoken to anyone about this particular topic and writing about it has really helped me move forward … and I hope that I am able to reach someone else who may feel the same way.

As I look back at my life, I realise I have been very privileged and haven’t really had an encounter where my skin colour has prevented me from doing what I want to do. Unfortunately, many other people in this world aren’t as lucky. We live in a time where black girls are considered either ugly or are extremely fetishised (isn’t it funny how that works?🤔) and black men are made to look violent and temperamental. Growing up I wanted to see myself as a white girl because it was instilled in my brain that they were the definition of beauty. I would close my eyes and dream of having fair skin, long brown hair and the works. It wasn’t until earlier last year I really accepted myself as a damn Coco KWEEEEN. I began to see people that looked like me more in the social network space. I followed black YouTubers and Instagram models, and I realised that representation is honestly EVERYTHING. The only way we can empower more black women, men, girls and boys is by helping them rise up and supporting each other. Everyone is beautiful and phenomenal. Race, culture, sexual orientation and religion do not determine your beauty, only you have the ability to do so.

Anyways just thought I’d share that little experience from my life with you guys!

Before you guys exit… do check out the lovely Coco Kweens featured below

Toronto Eats: Short and Sweet

Toronto Eats: Short and Sweet

This is the cutest bake shop I’ve ever been to. I have been stalking their instagram for months now! They’ve got the craziest icing filled cookies, jumbo hot chocolates and cupcakes. This is definitely the place you go to when you’re trying to avoid the winter struggles. The cute environment and happy staff really tie it together. They’ve got a pink neon sign that says “Butter Cream Dreams” and I’m all for it! I got the Cake! Cake! Cake! Hot chocolate with whipped cream and a vanilla cake topping. This is definitely a go-to place if you live/ find your self in the Yonge and Eg area 🙂

You can find them on 2025 Yonge ST or 1945 Avenue RD

Overall I think this place deserves a solid 4.2/5

Toronto Eats: Lil Baci

Lil Baci is an Italian restaurant near Yonge and Davisville (they also have a location near Queen and Carlaw) This quaint restaurant is great for brunch, lunch and dinner. They offer lovely soups, sandwiches, pasta and pizzas. The location itself is very modern and marble filled. It’s not too busy on weekdays during lunch hour but on the weekends it tends to get pretty packed. The ambience is so great, the waitresses are super engaging and really make the experience better. One of the waitresses noticed me taking pictures for my blog and she said ” I wish I had known, I would’ve been much nicer” then giggled a bit. This really goes to show how quirky and fun their staff are.  I got the Rigatoni Pasta with a beef and pork ragu. It was absolutely divine, the combination of pork and beef with the cheesy pasta was perfect for a cold winter day! As a tea lover, I was incredibly impressed with the tea menu. They have a few speciality tea blends that all seemed intriguing. Check out their menu  and definitely stop by one of their locations.

Rate: ❤❤❤❤/5

 

 

Back Home // Kenya 2017

 


Hey guys! This post is waaayyy over due but I promise there is a reason behind the madness! Yesterday (March 4th) marks 4 years of living in Toronto. So much in my life has changed and the time has really flown by! Earlier this year I got to go back to Nairobi for the first time since I moved. You never know how people are really doing when all you see are their posts on Facebook, Instagram or Snapchat. social media is just social, it doesn’t show you the real, intimate and personal details of your best friends lives. It’s incredibly hard to maintain a relationship with people when you’re thousands of miles apart but boy am I grateful for the people I’ve managed to stay close with.

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Skin Care Tips

 

Here are some products that i use on a regular basis. *from left to right* Burts Bees Deep Cleansing cream, Fresh Soy face cleanser, Fresh Rose face mask, Clarisonic MIA2, tea tress face wash, Lush Plum sugar lip scrub, Kiehl’s Midnight Recovery Concentrate, Evive Oil

Here are a few tips that I thought you guys could use. These are things I do regularly and swear by! Also, I am in no way a beautician or qualified to give actual facial advice, this is just my own knowledge.

enjoy xx

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Toronto Eats: The Starving Artist

The Starving Artist at St Clair and Glenholme had the best ambience. We walked in and I felt very comfortable and somewhat hype. The music was so great, I can’t even lie I was jamming the whole time. This is great for fun lunch or breakfast with friends or family.

The Waffle focused restaurant offers a crazy good menu. There were so many options and they were all so different. I went with the Chicken Bacon Waffle which had chicken and bacon (obviously), havarti cheese, cucumbers and their secret sauce. It came with a side of fresh fruits and a salad. It all tasted very fresh and very good. I would definitely go back!  Rate:  ❤️ ❤️ ❤️ ❤️ / 5

Click here to check out their menu

 

 

Goals for 2017

img_0050.jpgYes I know it’s February, it’s little late for new years resolutions now. But I believe that January is the 2017 trial month so I’m basing the rest of my year off of how Jan went

My year started very well, I was in Kenya for the first week and a half of the New Year and it really made me appreciate all the great people I know and all the great things I’m able to do. So resolution no. 1 is to be more grateful and to not take simple things for granted. There are so many people in this world who are fighting for basic rights like education, and nutrition. We don’t think about these things on a regular basis but this year I want to make a habit of “checking my privilege.” Resolution no. 2 is to focus more on school, although I get good grades my grades could always be better. The next two years are going to be tough, so I want to focus and beat the hard times. Resolution no. 3 is to go to the gym more. I’ve been putting off so many days of good gym time. I don’t just work out to just lose weight and to get toned but I go to release stress and if I’m not going then there’s just a butt ton of build up and tension.

Hopefully I get to focus on these 3 things this year and I’ll update you guys on how this is all going in July.

xx